I JUST WANNA LIVE

I just wanna live....

Well for those of you who know us pretty well, our lives have been kind of on the rocks these past two years, which by that statement I mean the future has been "unknown". It seems that we don't really have an idea what we're doing, where we will be in the next six months, and what we'll be doing.

Which is a little scary, well REALLY scary...but I've begun to wonder....

?!?!?!?!?!why do i make it out to be so scary?!?!?!?!?

We are in a really unique part of our lives right now that a lot of couple don't get to experience. Most couples have everything figured out even before they get married. They know exactly what they want to do with their lives, they pursue those dreams, and before they know it they're 50 wondering where their life went and how they got to the place they are at. (I might just be trying to console myself here) but how exciting is their lives?!

In these past two years, well three if you count the year we were engaged, we've been through some stuff that's been pretty difficult. Of course, we've had the normal issues of recently married couples but we've also faced alot of difficulties that most couples don't face. We've been in situations where there was no other place to look than up to our Savior Jesus. Ironically that should be the first place that we turn, but sometimes you put other things in front of Him sadly. It has increased our faith more than ever. We've had many doors shut in our face, where God just says no. It's hard to have continual hope when doors and opportunities just pass you up. We've had individuals and family say things that cause us to feel ashamed at our situation, and that ultimately that we're a dissappointment. It's caused us to compare ourselves with other couples (HUGE problem with me). It's caused us to think that we aren't thinking long term and that we are "growing up".

But I've become to feel and realize that we're just trying to find God's purpose for us. And I might just be trying to console myself again, but I don't see any other better position in this world that to be open and available for what God wants for you life. If you already have things "figured out" there are too many obsticals in your way to be truely open to God's leading. You have material items and possessions, pride in your heart, and a sense of what you should be doing instead that can hold you back from the life giving LIFE that God really wants for you.

So I've decided to not let my thought, my families thoughts, and the individuals in my life, the power to choose what I should or shouldn't be doing. (at least not for this moment--a continual struggle of the mind) I JUST WANNA LIVE...live life unaltered by the world, but controlled by GOD's plan for us.

check out the video posted above by good charlotte...this song has made me think alot about how we really should live....well sort of....but you get the point

is it really that inconvenient?

Recently my husband I viewed the documentary an inconvenient truth and we were shocked to just see how bad global warming really is. We've done alot of investigating, even before viewing the film, and knew that it was a significant problem in the world, and to every individual despite the fact if they believe they have a part or not.
I've always cared about the environment, even from the time that I was very little. It just makes sense to me!! If you have the abilities to recycle, why not do it? I've heard people say that it is inconvenient, it takes too long, they give the excuse that there aren't any recycling places nearby. But seriously, I think it is just INCONVENIENT to them. I think our cities have made it so it isn't inconvenient, but people are just plain lazy. My husband and I recycle everything that we can. We see a significant amount of plastics, glass, paper...etc. that isn't in the landfill each week. And really it takes us about 10 minutes a week!
I've had many conversations with friends and family, and lately I've been thrown the line of "you democrats". It is really quite offensive to me. I have never declared myself a republic or a democrat. Just because you believe that something is important, does it automatically put you on one side politically? And why is it a matter of politics anyway? I know some people classify the belief as a "side" but I've never said "Because I am a ___(enter political view)____ this is why this matters to me." It's quite frustrating. And by the way....just for everyones interest since it does matter so much to some people, I'm an American who rides the fence, I believe in both "democratic" and "republican" views. I see truth about some things on both sides, as well as faults on both sides.
Why has our government put so much emphasis on global warming as a political belief? I believe this is a worldwide concern. A HUMAN concern. It doesn't matter what you believe in politically, but how you care about the place you call home. The world.
Being a professing believer and follower of Christ, I believe that Christians should be concerned about this. If you're a believer as well, look up Genesis 2:15. It states:
"The LORD God took the man and put him in the Garden of Eden to work it and take care of it."
The LORD God told them this FIRST, even before saying that Adam and Eve weren't allowed to eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.
A great book that touches on this issue as well is SEX GOD Exploring the endless connections between sexuality and spirituality By Rob Bell. He talks about our trash and how much we think about it after we see the garbage men driving away after picking up our trash. Do you think about where it is going? If it made it there safetly?
He brings up the issue that how you treat the creation, says a little about how feel about the creator of that creation. Do you love the creator, but disregard his creation? How would you feel if you had amazing artistic talent, and you painted a monumental painting and gave it to your friend. You envision him placing this painting on his wall, admiring it every day. How would you feel if in actuality he disregarded your painting, shredded it, and then threw it is a huge garbage heap where it would sit for many many years, and rot? Would you feel, as the painter, offended and hurt over the gift that you gave? Do you believe that is how God feels when he sees how we take care of his creation, his domain?
My goal is to make the creator smile by how I try to manage and take care of HIS creation. I'm just a traveler on this earth....my life is temporary....I need to make the most of it, and have reverence and love for my creator, Jesus Christ and the amazing gift that He's given me, the Earth.